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  Blade Dancer

  By

  S.L. Viehl

  Contents

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

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  First published by Roc, an imprint of New American Library, a division of Penguin Group (USA) Inc.

  First Printing, August 2003

  10 9 8765432 1

  Copyright © S. L. Viehl, 2003

  All rights reserved

  ROC REGISTERED TRADEMARK—MARCA REGISTRADA

  LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA:

  Viehl, S. L.

  Blade dancer / S.L. Viehl.

  p. cm.

  ISBN 0-451-45926-1 (alk. paper)

  1. Mothers and daughters—Fiction. 2. Revenge—Fiction. I. Title.

  PS3622.I45 B58 2003

  813’.54—dc21 2002043129

  Printed in the United States of America

  Set in Sabon

  Designed by Ginger Legato

  PUBLISHER’S NOTE

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s

  imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business

  establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  For my mother, Joan Jean Sabella,

  who taught me what it means to have strength, stamina, and faith.

  Love you, Mom.

  CHAPTER ONE

  “The path changes, so too must the traveler.”

  —Tarek Varena, ClanJoren

  All I was trying to do when they caught me was bury my mother in an unmarked grave.

  I should have seen them coming—I was out there alone, in the desert, in the middle of the night—but I

  didn’t. Maybe because I was tired. And upset. And committing a felony.

  The tired part came from staying awake since getting Mom’s last signal. I’d ditched practice, dodged my

  offcoach, disguised myself to avoid any stray media hounds, rented a glidecar under an alias, then headed

  from the city for the desert. All that took forty-nine hours, with no time for a catnap in between.

  I hadn’t gotten upset until I’d walked through the front door of our house.

  I tried not to think about that as I carried my mother’s body over a mile out to the south ridge. I knew it

  would be safer to burn her, but I couldn’t bring myself to get the petrol and the matches. I couldn’t do

  that, not to her. I’d already done enough.

  Like the felony part.

  Have to finish this before dawn or someone’ll spot me.

  On the way to where I figured no one would ever find her body, I had to deal with the uneven terrain on

  top of my exhaustion. If I fell, I might end up cracking my skull, or worse, junking my knee. In the

  distance I saw buzzards circling over something else dead—which reminded me, I’d have to make the

  hole deep or they’d get at her. Other things waited in the shadows and watched for a chance at a

  midnight snack, too. Vultures. Coyotes. Rodents. I’d once seen a dead ewe out here covered with a

  seething blanket of black roaches.

  I won’t let them chew on you, Mom.

  The temperature, which had been scorching when I’d arrived, had dropped enough to make my face feel

  numb and stiff. Some of the local cacti flowered at night, and I could smell their thin, desperate perfume.

  The sweat collecting on my scalp and under my arms had no scent, but made me itch, probably because

  I couldn’t scratch. I hated being sweaty, even when there was no one around to notice my body

  odor—or lack thereof.

  I knew what my mother would have said right then: You should have showered before you left the

  house.

  “Yeah, well, I was busy.”

  Her face bounced against my chest with every step I took, and left wet marks on my shirt. I was glad it

  was dark. I didn’t want to look at her. I didn’t want my last memory to be of her like this.

  My last memory was bad enough.

  The desert silence, something I usually enjoyed, started to get to me. It was too quiet. There should have

  been coyotes yipping, wind whistling, crickets chirping, something. Instead, all I could hear were my

  own footsteps thudding against the sun-baked earth, crushing weeds, skidding a little on pebbles here

  and there.

  “Help me out here, Mom.” I shifted her weight in my arms. “Haunt me or something.”

  An image of her sitting calmly at our kitchen table with two teacups snapped into my mind—the way she

  looked up as she poured. Her hand on the teakettle. The smile that had always been a little sad.

  What say you tell me about the game, Jory?

  That had been six months ago, but I played along and repeated what I’d told her then. “Damn Gliders

  gave our defense a real pounding. We tied it up right before the one-minute warning, and the whole game

  came down to the final play. Thought the offcoach was going to strangle the defcoach.” I grinned. “Dees

  kicked from the forty. Linemen everywhere, dogging anyone stupid enough to run a standard pattern and

  just mowing ‘em down.”

  You are not stupid, my ClanDaughter.

  I ignored the ghost voice in my head and babbled on. “Only Coach and I worked out this hook

  play—center run for ten, loop back to left field for five, then the old dip and dive past Dees. I snagged

  the sphere, cradled it in, and ran. By the time those tacks realized what we’d done, nobody could get

  near me. Felt like I was skipping on air all the way to the zone.”

  You are not skipping now.

  No, I wasn’t. Every step made my knee click, and serious pain pulsed up through my thigh muscle,

  courtesy of my artificial-joint tech. I’d have to spend a couple of hours fiddling with the ligament mounts

  again.

  I warned you not to play so hard.

  “I don’t play hard. I get hit hard.”

  Rijor would not agree with you.

  That reminded me. “Did I tell you about Rij’s sib? She came downside to see me. Intergal Shockball

>   heard our junta erased Rij’s name from all the Terran databases for being part fish, so the nonhuman

  league is going to add him to theirs and retire his old number on his homeworld. Put him in their hall of

  fame and everything. You’d have been tickled.”

  He would have made you an excellent bondmate.

  He might have, if a fan hadn’t noticed water leaking from a tear in Rij’s uniform after a particularly rough

  game two years ago. That same afternoon, an angry mob had dragged him from the arena and beaten

  him to death.

  You should have Chosen him.

  “Shut up, Mom.”

  The only choice I needed to make was where to plant her. After looking around, I picked a natural

  depression in the ground unpopulated by sagebrush and weeds, and put down the body. As I

  straightened, the moon came out from the clouds and made her dead eyes gleam. They were all white, no

  pupils, no irises. Anyone who’d have seen them would have thought she was blind.

  No, Jory. Mom’s ghost sounded as tired as I felt. They’d see the color of my skin, and call the

  authorities.

  I didn’t feel sorry for her. “Not a problem anymore, is it?”

  I pulled the shovel out of my backpack and put it to use. The desert ground was dry but hard-packed,

  and it took a few minutes to find the right angle. Even then, I had trouble getting into the rhythm of

  stab-push-heave. Not like I’d had a whole lot of practice digging graves in the desert in the middle of the

  goddamn night.

  I was meant for the embrace of the stars.

  Her ghost was really starting to tick me off. “Next time die on another planet, okay?”

  I should have been at a memorial center in the city, giving her a decent funeral. Flowers. Church music.

  Discreetly anxious attendants hovering during the services until it was time to reduce her remains to

  sanitary, scatterable ash. But not even a bribe of World Game tickets would keep the morticians from

  turning us in.

  Mom and I weren’t even supposed to be on Terra without special short-term visas. Instead we’d resided

  here illegally for twenty-four years. My mother had always been in hiding, first with the other aliens in the

  underground tunnels beneath the city, then by becoming a complete recluse once I had earned enough to

  buy the desert house.

  I would have done anything for you.

  I jumped—that time, she’d sounded like she’d been standing right next to me—then I shoveled faster.

  “Couple of fans cornered me last week outside Toronto arena. They had a new baby with them, told me

  they’d named her Jory.” I had to stop to wipe the sweat from my eyes. “Nice people, but shit, Mom, that

  kid looked just like a monkey.”

  You should have children of your own.

  “Me. A mother.” I snorted. “When swine become airborne, maybe.”

  At last I judged the grave to be deep enough, and climbed out. I’d brought a length of old linen to wrap

  around Mom’s body. She wouldn’t have liked this part, either. According to her, bodies should be

  wrapped in a shroud woven by the family during the “Yay-You’re-Dead” party. Where she came from,

  they loved funerals.

  Death is not the end of the journey. It is only a new path taken by the traveler.

  “No ship, no stars, not even a grass shroud, Mom. A hole in the dirt and cotton’s the best I can do.”

  I folded her six-fingered hands over her sunken chest. She had beautiful hands, strong and graceful and

  competent. I’d never seen her claws emerge, not once in twenty-four years. The numbness inside me

  contracted into something else. Something tight and hot and furious.

  I was burying my mother.

  Do not grieve for me, ClanDaughter.

  I didn’t want to grieve.

  I wanted to hit something.

  Like her.

  “Why the hell didn’t you call me?” The words exploded out of me. “I’d have stomped over anything to get

  to you! We could have gone back underground; I could have gotten the medicine in time. I could have

  saved you. What were you thinking?”

  It was my choice. My path.

  “You and your stupid fucking paths!” I kicked the shovel, sending it flying. Then I was on my knees, my

  arms around my abdomen, doubled over. Losing her hurt worse than anything that had ever been done to

  me. “How could you? How could you leave me like this? You’re all I’ve got. All I’ve ever had.”

  Still, white-within-white eyes stared up at the stars I couldn’t give her.

  I honor you, Jory.

  I stopped acting like a jerk, and carefully arranged the coils and braids of her black hair around her face.

  Most of the pustules had broken before she’d died, and a few still oozed green fluid when I touched

  her—the same fluid that was all over the front of my shirt. Trickles of it ran down her cheeks, like dark

  tears.

  “At least one of us can cry.” I sat back on my haunches and pressed my palms to the sides of my

  pounding head. “So what do I do now, Mom?”

  My answer came immediately, when light flashed in my face. “PRC. Hold it right there.”

  Five men surrounded me, and I curled my glove around the hilt of the knife I always carried, even during

  games. No one was going to do me the way they’d done Rij. The high-intensity emitters they carried

  made it hard to see their faces, but they were obviously well dressed. Every one of them had a weapon

  drawn.

  With Mom dead, there’d be no more bribes from me. Evidently the neighbors had decided to go

  elsewhere to get some creds.

  I straightened to my full height, and two of the men took an automatic step back. Nice thing about being

  nearly seven feet tall—it unnerved every guy I met. “Get lost.”

  While they were busy gaping, I picked up my mother and carried her over to the hole. They followed,

  forming a loose ring around me, Mom, and the grave.

  “What are you burying?” one of them asked.

  I could have lied and said a really big dog or something. But the reason to do that was going in the grave.

  What was the point? “My mother.”

  “Why didn’t you take her to a mortuary memorial center?” The PRC agent pointed a beam at my face.

  I stepped out of the light. “Because, stupid, she didn’t like them. Take a hike.”

  “Put down the body.”

  I carried her to the grave and jumped in. New pain sizzled up my thigh as I laid Mom out in the bottom.

  The old fears came crawling along with it. Maybe I could cover her fast, make some excuses. I’d listed

  “future-ager” as my religious preference with the junta; that might get me some slack. Five faces stared

  over the edge at me. Someone enabled a weapon.

  Ta-ta, slack.

  “You have ten seconds to climb out of there.”

  I used seven to bend down and kiss my mother’s ruined face. Her brow felt hard and cold against my

  lips. “Honor you, Mom.”

  I ignored the outstretched hands and hoisted myself out. The dirt from the grave sides felt dry and

  crumbly under my hands.

  The light was in my face again. “Step aside.”

  Planetary Residential Commission agents had no respect for the dead. I was tempted to teach them

  some. “Leave. Now.”

  PRC hands grabbed at me, holding me, patting me down. One of them took my knife. The other grabbed

  my breast and squeezed.

  “No tits,” he said as he slid his hand down betw
een my thighs. “But feels like she’s got a nice, tight slash.”

  Mistake number one.

  No female plays pro without getting groped in the locker room now and then. I’d been hit on for eight

  straight seasons, usually by rookies or new trades who hadn’t been warned. If they came back from

  injured reserve, they never touched me again.

  Nobody put their hands on me.

  I took out two of them with one leg sweep, forcing the first backward and down by the hair while

  cracking some of the second’s ribs with my boot. The third came running at me from behind, and I turned

  so he could collide with my fist. His nose fractured under my knuckles, and his jaw would have been

  next, but the fourth dove between us and tried to knock me away with a shoulder to the center of my